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SightlessI looked for you
for a long time.

In crowds, on
buses, at bustling
football games,
I sought.

I combed
the personals,
scoured the
internet,
turned over
some rocks.

I crawled through
dingy bars, sat alone
on mall benches,
and even pretended
to find religion.

My heart leapt
when I thought
I’d found you
(but I was wrong)
and then again
and again.

But I didn’t
find you,

and, finally, my
aging heart
began to contract
into stone,
the cooling lava
of wild, futile
hopes unmet.

I sit now
in a quiet place
and weep amid
my dead dreams
from eyes gone
blind with
searching.

WordlessI’ve learned to
protect myself
from everyone
but you.

They throw words
like whetted knives,

guilt like balanced
circus axes,

tears like drops
of acid.

From these, I’ve
learned to retreat
behind walls of stone; eyes
as cold as glacial ice
hide the bleeding.

Yet from you, I find
no escape, your silence
a weapon I cannot
deflect.

No matter how deeply
I burrow into myself,
your muteness follows me,
wraps around me
like a shroud

until I find myself
without defense,
naked and helpless
before lips long
dead of words.

soulfulif eyes mirror
the soul, yours

is a bright
blue shining

clean, cloudless
skies

fields of
cornflowers

deep breaths on
frosty mornings

fathomless depths
of soft seas

that I will swim
into tomorrow

woethere are days
when the world
seems cold

when every door
is closed

and every window
open but too
small for egress

once I could
turn to find him
smiling over
my shoulder

now I turn
in empty air
devoid

of warmth
or expectation

there are days
when the world
seems cold

burgeonI opened myself
before you like a
blossom to
the sun

and you fell
upon me like a
blind torrent
soon spent

leaving me
broken and bruised
as a tulip in a
sudden storm

destroyed in
its newness
by the pouring
rain

devotedhello

you’ll be glad to know
that I hardly ever
think of you
anymore

my nights are
no longer sleepless,
my eyes red-rimmed
and puffy

I’m over you
at last, emptiness
a tired relief
from pain

yes, I don’t
miss you
anymore

but my number
hasn’t changed if
you ever need to
reach me

deardreams were cheap
when we were young

we could crumple them up
like miswritten love notes
and throw them out
to start again

lazily plucking new ones
from the rose-colored
fields of our insouciance

but now the days shorten
roads once open are walled shut
our feet turn in aimless circles

dreams become dear
as one by one
they die beneath
reality’s heavy boots

and none rise up to
replace them

unadulteratedi thought i wanted honesty
(until you gave it to me)

then i realized that truth
(the real unvarnished kind)
is all sharp edges like samurai
swords and whet-stoned
knives

the cuts are clean
(but, god, they’re deep)

so the next time i
desire naked truth

sheath your righteous tongue

soften, whitewash, equivocate

and when i ask if you love me
(and you say yes)

i can pretend a little longer

that it’s true

rawtake back
your pretty love
words

tuck them
under your
tongue

kiss me
until my lips bloom
with bruises

scrape me raw
with your
blistering skin

and scratch
this itch until
it bleeds

WailJerked awake by dreams,
I lie in the dark and listen
to the long, deep wail
of a passing train, its
mourning disappearing
into tomorrow.

I turn back into my blankets
and wonder where it’s going,
rushing through the cold,
black night, its voice so
frantic and needful.

Its call echoes through
the silence and beckons
me to chase it as I
realize the frantic need
is mine.

FittingI tried to tell him
I was leaving

(again).

But I couldn’t
find the words

(again).

So I’ll stay here
and eat my

just desserts

(again).

misledyour memory leaves
a bad taste in my mouth
like under ripe oranges
or bleeding gums

I trusted you
and you let me down
(just as someone long ago
had done to you)

but I didn’t learn
the same lessons you did -
to mistrust all of mankind,
that the world is out to get me

I learned only that
I can’t trust
you

faded polaroidsvoices echo down
the hall like playground
memories and school
pictures with bad haircuts

I listen to those
indistinct murmurs
and stare into the past,
remembering when

life was as simple
as bologna sandwiches
and names spelled in
alphabet soup

animal crackers roared
in our hands until
we bit off their heads
and made them be quiet

saltines and grape juice
served as communion
under the big oak, God
watching from the branches

in a world drawn in
black and white when
love was love and we
weren’t allowed to hate
(for fear of damnation)

I can smell those days,
taste the sweaty
summer afternoons
running through dan

seasonalI.

cold days remind
me of you

II.

you would
rub my freezing
fingers between
your big hands
and smile

your eyes shining
like a window
of blue sky
among dark clouds -
a promise of spring

as new blossoms
shiver in the wind,
I remember frigid
mornings and
your yelp as I
poked my cold nose
into your back

how you turned to me
and we disappeared
beneath blankets, our
bodies creating their
own moist heat, wrapped
in the language
of summer

I loved you,
drawn to your burning
warmth, to the calm rhythm
of your breathing,
as irresistibly as gravity
calls to earth
the falling leaves
of autumn

III.

si

the dance of Timeat dawn, Time met me at
the threshold and took
me in his arms, and we twirled
through gold-rimmed fields
of bluebells and sunflowers
that smelled of peppermint
and girl child dreams of
knights straining under silver
armor upon white chargers
that never tired, and we
spun until my youth
disappeared into the
noonday sun

as childhood fell away,
Time pulled me closer, and
we tripped through pink pajama
adolescence and first awkward
kisses into sultry days of
red silk hungering for
moon-washed nights and full grown
lusts, instincts obeyed,
breathless moans climaxing
in cries of newborn
generations who fall
in line behind

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Pen and PaperI loved you,
yet
you’ve written
me off as
completely as
if I’d never
existed.

wordsthere are days when words are all I have

words sliding letter by letter from the
end of a pencil, turning blank white paper

into pieces of me,

pieces that can be packed away
and forgotten

until they’re unearthed in dusty
shoeboxes and yellowed notebooks

where someone will find me

when the words are all that’s left

starvationyou taste me

sip me

gulp me

devour me

only to find

that you need more

much more

and I have so

much left to

give you

DrinkI should never drink.

The pain, hidden, stuffed in dark corners,
takes on a life of its own and begins

to wander, devouring all in its path like a
blind larvae, growing until it fills me.

The venomous thing eats its way to the surface
where it threatens to burst out and escape,

leaving nothing but its skin behind like a
lonely locust shell on a sycamore tree.

No, I should never drink.

TestWe’ll put it
to the test.

If one kiss
leads
to another
and knees
begin to
buckle,

then we’ll
know.

Broken PiecesShe finally left
once and forever,
but in breaking his grip,
she tore herself in half
and walked away,
trailing the pieces
behind her.

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twilight

by ~Blueskye27, Mar 16, 2009, 4:57:06 PM
Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Free Verse

I, too, once
blossomed
in the green
freshness
of spring

my flesh as
firm and sweet
as a ripe fig
between
sure teeth

but long days
of sameness
have curled
unnoticed
into years

and the dried
parchment of
my youth
yellows into
dust

as I bow
my head in defeat
before the
setting
sun

twilightby ~Blueskye27

Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Free Verse

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~WolfenFire Mar 31, 2009

Nice and direct imagery. ^-^

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*That-Krimzon-Stain Mar 22, 2009 Professional Writer

I love it.

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~Blueskye27 Mar 22, 2009 Hobbyist Writer

Thanks, Jamie.

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~Spectrumchaser Mar 20, 2009

Sad and beautiful.

I think you and I are kind of in the same place with some of our feelings and thoughts. You're in my brain Cindy!

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~Blueskye27 Mar 21, 2009 Hobbyist Writer

Yes, I get the feeling that we're largely in the same place, so I'm with ya, girl. We'll just have to encourage each other.

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~Spectrumchaser Mar 23, 2009

Yep - gotta keep thinking there's better yet to come

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~Blueskye27 Mar 24, 2009 Hobbyist Writer

Oh, yeah, gotta...

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